I can relate to so much of what you wrote – and the c-section post you linked to. Both my boys were born c-section.

Considering that it’s after the 4th my advice might not help. My doctor had offered a tubal but she told me that unless I was 100% sure that I didn’t want more kids then I shouldn’t do it.

My 2nd one is 16 months now and I still don’t know if I want a 3rd. Emotionally I do but every logical bone in my body is saying no.

I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling with PPD. I had it full blown after my 2nd child. My 2nd pregnancy and post-pregnancy were nothing like my first. Everything was happy-happy with my first and a struggle with my 2nd. PPD is another one of those things that nobody can really understand unless they have been there. I hope you have support – both emotionally and physically.

If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here.

Did you guys plan on him having a V. before the scare?

What about waiting just a bit longer for it? Until after the Preggo hormones and everything you have been through has settled down?
There really is a 4th trimester.

But on the other hand you don’t really sound like you mind it.

I know that is not much help.
I am thinking about you (a lot actually) and only wish you and your family the very best.